Sunday, 11 November 2012

We Will Remember Them

They shall grow not old, as we that are left grow old:
Age shall not weary them, nor the years condemn.
At the going down of the sun and in the morning,
We will remember them.

Wednesday, 7 November 2012

Beauty Blogger Tag

1. Is your hair naturally curly or straight?
I have layers cut into mine so its pretty wavy with volume but its not curly.

2. What is your natural hair color?
its very odd, its sort of browny, reddy, blondey!

3. Do you dye it yourself or go to a salon?
I started off dying it at the salon but now I've found a red that I like and because its only one colour I dye it at home

4. How often do you wash your hair?
Every other day, maybe a bit less. It doesn't get greasy really and I don't want to fade the red!

5. Do you wear the same style every day or change it?
I'm awful and unless its a special occasion my hair either dries naturally and hangs how it is other than that its tied back out of the way!

6. Do you do your own mani/pedi or go to a salon?
I do them myself

7. How often to you change your nail polish?
About once a week, sometimes less sometimes more

8. Do you polish your toes in the winter, too or just in the summer?
I very rarely polish my toes, I'm lazy!

9. How long does it take to put on your makeup?
5 mins for an everyday face but probably 20/25 if I'm doing it for going out!

10. What do you do first? Face or eyes?
Face, then lips then eyes

11. Do you "collect" makeup or just buy what you need when you need it?
I don't collect makeup per-se I just buy it when I want it!

12. How often do you wear false eyelashes? 
I've never worn them, my lashes are pretty long already and I'm slightly scared of them!

13. Do you do a full face of makeup every day?
No Way!

14. Do you wear makeup when you are home alone (or with family)?

15. Will you leave the house without makeup?
Yeah, I'm not that bothered, sides its better for your skin!

16. How many high end products do you have?

17. How often do you wash your makeup brushes?
Let me just say not as often as I should!

18. Do you plan your OOTD every night or decide when you are getting dressed?
I tend to have a think the night before

19. How often do you change your handbag?
Very rarely, I've found a bag that works for me and I keep it

20. What time do you get up and go to sleep?
I get up round 8 and go to sleep sort of 9.30/10ish

21. How often and when do you workout?
I don't workout at all unless you count physio?

22. Left-handed or Right-handed?

23. How tall are you?

24. Do you speak a foreign language?
No, I did latin until GCSE and its one of my regrets that I didn't keep it up.

25. How many pets do you have?

26. How often are you on Blogger?
Not as often as I should.

27. Do you read the comments posted blogs?
I read every single comment and try to reply to them all

28. Do you keep a list of products to try as you see other posts?
Yeah I keep a mental one, but I'm awful in that if I see something I really want I just go buy it!

29. How did you come up with your blog name?
I wanted to write about what I thought about makeup and life in general and I'm on crutches (although technicly I use a wheelchair more these days!) so thoughts of a girl on crutches was born!

30. What kind of camera do you use for photographs?
I have a compact digital camera, don't know what brand but its tiny!

31. How often do you clean your house? (Daily, weekly, other)
I live in university accomodation so luckily someone else cleans it for me!

32. What is your favorite color?

33. What is your favorite beauty/fashion magazine?
Glamour although I do also love Marie Claire

34. Do you swear?

35. What are you doing with the rest of your day?
I'm probably gonna do some uni work then sleep!

Feel free to do the tag and post your links below, I'd love to see everyone's answers!

Saturday, 3 November 2012

Giveaway Entry

Louise at "The Beauty of Louise" is running a giveaway. You can find it here.

To enter the giveaway you have to make a collage of what you would buy with £80 at Feel Unique. So here's mine... feel free to point and laugh as creativity is not my strong point!

High Beam: £18.50 (I've always wanted to try it, but reluctant to shell out for a product I don't know if I'll like!)

Cowshed Knackered Cow Travel Candle Set: £22 (I have a body lotion of this and love the scent!)
Issey Miyake L'Eau d'Issey Summer 2012 Eau De Toilette Limited Edition 100ml. £30 (Such a lovely Perfume!)

This Works Deep Sleep Pillow Talk Duo £15 (Again something I've ummed and ahed over for ages, think i'll get it even if I don't win!)

So thats my picks, what would you choose? 


What would you like to see?

Hi Guys!

I hope you're all good. I promise I have some reviews coming soon including the Nails inc. Polish I got with Glamour and the Body Shop "Pamper Kit"!

But, i was just wondering is there a certain type of post you'd like to see? Something that I haven't done before or something that I've been doing and should do more of?

Please let me Know!

Friday, 26 October 2012

Have you read it?

 Thank you so much for your kindness on my last post, I promise I'm ok was just unsure if I'd made the situation worse or not... anyway on with business!

I'm so gutted, I have a pile of new beauty stuff to show you guys but the light in my room is so poor I can't really get any photos of it! have to keep trying!

In the meantime thought I'd share this with you, I'm sure its been floating round a while and I'm a real bookworm so thought it might be fun.

These are the 106 books most often marked as "unread" by LibraryThing’s users. I've read the bold ones, I've put a question mark beside the one's I've never heard of and an exclamation mark beside the book if I loved it.

Jonathan Strange & Mr Norrell

Anna Karenina

 Crime and Punishment


One Hundred Years of Solitude

Wuthering Heights

The Silmarillion

Life of Pi: a novel

The Name of the Rose

Don Quixote

Moby Dick

Madame Bovary

The Odyssey

Pride and Prejudice

Jane Eyre

The Tale of Two Cities

The Brothers Karamazov

?Guns, Germs, and Steel: the fates of human societies

War and Peace

Vanity Fair

The Time Traveler’s Wife

The Iliad


The Blind Assassin

!The Kite Runner

?Mrs. Dalloway

Great Expectations

American Gods

?A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius

Atlas Shrugged

Reading Lolita in Tehran: a memoir in books

Memoirs of a Geisha


!Wicked: the life and times of the wicked witch of the West

The Canterbury Tales

The Historian: a novel

A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man

Love in the Time of Cholera

!Brave New World

The Fountainhead

Foucault’s Pendulum


The Count of Monte Cristo


A Clockwork Orange

Anansi Boys

The Once and Future King

The Grapes of Wrath

The Poisonwood Bible: a novel


Angels & Demons

The Inferno (and Purgatory and Paradise)

The Satanic Verses

Sense and Sensibility

!The Picture of Dorian Gray

Mansfield Park

One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest

To the Lighthouse

Tess of the D’Urbervilles

Oliver Twist

Gulliver’s Travels

!Les Misérables

The Corrections

?The Amazing Adventures of Kavalier and Clay

!The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time


The Prince

?The Sound and the Fury

Angela’s Ashes : a memoir

?The God of Small Things

?A People’s History of the United States : 1492-present



?A Confederacy of Dunces

A Short History of Nearly Everything


?The Unbearable Lightness of Being



The Scarlet Letter

Eats, Shoots & Leaves
The Mists of Avalon

!Oryx and Crake : a novel

?Collapse : how societies choose to fail or succeed

Cloud Atlas

?The Confusion



Northanger Abbey

The Catcher in the Rye

On the Road

The Hunchback of Notre Dame

Freakonomics : a rogue economist explores the hidden side of everything

?Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance : an inquiry into values

The Aeneid

!Watership Down

Gravity’s Rainbow

!The Hobbit

?In Cold Blood : a true account of a multiple murder and its consequences

White Teeth

Treasure Island

David Copperfield

The Three Musketeers

Looks like I've got some more books to add to my to read list! If you guys have done anything like this I'd love to see it.

Sunday, 21 October 2012

A Story

Hi all,

I just wanted to ask your opinion on something that happened to me the other day. I don't know if I overreacted or what and just wanted to share really. Normal makeup service will resume shortly!

I've recently taken up archery and there was a girl there who is an undergraduate psychology student. She asked me why I was shooting sitting down and why I was on crutches. I explained that I had RSD and that I was in constant pain and also that my brain found it very difficult to move my leg. She then told me that as a psychology student she knew a lot of neuroscience and knew that the brain didn't work like that so I must be making it up. She then suggested that I had munchausen syndrome!

I have to admit I lost it! I didn't swear thankfully, but  I did strongly suggest that if she thought I had managed to fool all the specialists I'd seen and was really making it up then what did she think she was doing learning psychology. Her response was to stop the NHS being taken advantage of by people like me! Then I really did lose it, told her she was a disgusting human being and that I hoped she never graduated as she was obviously not fit to work in any role with vulnerable people. At which point she stormed off and at the rest of the session made a point of staring at me and talking loudly about how I was an attention seeker and a fake.

I'm not sharing this for any sort of sympathy or pity. I just want to know if I reacted ok, did I make the situation worse by what I said? How would you react?

Friday, 12 October 2012

Makeup and Me

What does makeup mean to you?

I’ve seen this tag around occasionally and it’s been lovely to have a little insight into the minds of people whose opinions I respect so much, so I thought I’d give it a go myself.

It’s funny because if you asked my friends or family who was the most likely person to start a beauty blog it certainly wouldn’t be me they thought of.
I never wore makeup when I was younger, all through school I was the girl with the glasses and hair in a bun, preferring to have the extra 10 minutes in bed than worry about what I looked like. I was bullied too so, although I’m no psychologist maybe I thought that I really was ugly and makeup wouldn’t make any difference.

This changed a bit when I met my boyfriend (although we’ve been together 4 years now and talked marriage etc. so I don’t know if that upgrades him to partner??!) I started to realise that maybe I was attractive and got a bit more interested in makeup , although that was nothing more really than a bit of eyeliner and mascara, enough to accentuate my natural features but nothing major.

I really came to makeup when my RSD came out of remission, nearly a year ago. I spent a lot of time in hospital and lying in bed and for someone who ran and baked and drove and wore jeans and heels everywhere this was a bit of a shock. Makeup was something that I could do, something that made my day a bit more varied and as much as this is a cliché made me feel better!

I’m not claiming to be an expert and I’m definitely not saying that I do a full face every day and there aren’t today where I’m in trackies and glasses without a scrap of makeup on and I’m fine about that! However, I am  saying that I am so thankful that I have makeup in my life now, it gives me the power to be who I want to be and to show that, I take great pleasure in turning up to hospital appointments in full face, I’m not the sick girl and I have makeup to thank for that!

Ok ramblings over, I’d love to hear your stories about makeup and you if you care to share?

Tuesday, 9 October 2012

How much is your face worth?

I've seen this tag around a lot and thought it'd be interesting to do it myself especially as I don't think I own or wear a lot of high end makeup.

  • Naked Palette £36
  • MUA Mosaic Blush in English Rose £2
  • Max Factor False Lash Effect Mascara £10.99
  • Estee Lauder Daywear BB Cream £32
  • Collection 2000 Lasting Perfection Concealer £4.19
  • Bobbi Brown £24
  • No.7 Perfect Light Pressed Powder £11.50
  • 17 Mirror Shine Lipstick in Belle £4.79
  • Bodyshop Carbon Eye Definer in Brown £9
Total: £134.47

This is much much higher than I thought it would be, I was expecting a sort of £90ish figure.

Slightly scary how much I've spent on makeup when you think this is only a small part of my collection.

How much is your face worth?

Saturday, 6 October 2012

My room

As you guys may or may not be aware I've recently moved back to uni to finish my degree, so I thought I'd give you guys a little tour of my room.

(I don't have much storage space so please ignore the little messiness of the place!)

 This is the main storage space in my room, you can see my folders with my work in and on the shelves are all my mugs, books, cooking stuff and of course makeup! The three bears on the shelf are very special, the teddy bear was my dads when he was a baby, the giraffe in the middle my little brother gave to me for going back and Mandeville was given to my by my boyfriend at the paralympics when I met my hero Danielle Brown!
(also you can see my crutches which tend to get dumped anywhere!)

 Here's my bed complete with Primark duvet and baby animal posters. The two bears were also given to me by my boyfriend, the larger one when I was in hospital and the small white one for our first valentines together. Also there is yet more mobility equipment!

 Here we have my very messy desk piled high with work, its nice that its there because there is a beautiful view of the old buildings that make up my univeristy
This is the last side of my room and tis mostly decorative with my bears and ornaments on the shelf.

Hope you enjoyed the tour!

Wednesday, 3 October 2012


Just thought I'd show you what I'm wearing today, not doing anything fancy just doctors and then at home but I quite like the way it looks and the contrast between the dark dress and the light tights so thought I'd share!

Dress is Dorothy Perkins in the sale and picked up the tights in boots of all places!

 Please excuse the slightly rubbish photos, its dark in my room!

Wednesday, 26 September 2012

My interview Face

As promised here's the makeup I used for my interview face, hope you like it

I didn't use any base as my skin is spot free at the moment and my bags aren't too bad.

Eyes: Naked Palette, Urban Decay. Sin, Smog and Buck in the Crease
Eye Liner: Body Shop Pencil in Brown
Mascara: Max Factor False Lash Effect, Black
Blush: Body Shop Shimmer Wave in Blush
Powder: No7 Translucent Powder
Lipstick: MAC Creme D'Nude

What do you think? Do you have an interview/meeting face?

Monday, 24 September 2012

Interview Outfit

On Friday I had a very important interview with all the top people at university to decide if I can come back to finish my degree. They said yes!

But I thought I'd show you what I wore and then in another  post do an interview face, especially as I got compliments from the women at the meeting!

I wore this dress from New Look, I really like the colouring, I think its quite unusual and it goes really well with my skin and hair. I also liked the cut and the shape of the dress, room for an hourglass figure and big boobs!
Another great thing about this dress is that its lined and the fabric is thick so it feels much more expensive than it is which is always nice!

I also wore these shoes from asos (although I kicked them off under the table as soon as I walked in!)

I really like these as they're quite subtle but just that little bit more special than plain black shoes.

Lastly I thought I'd show you the necklace I wore, apart from plain silver studs this was the only jewellary I wore because I wanted to look understated and professional, the neckline of the dress made it quite important that there was something there to break up the big expanse of bare chest.

I got this necklace from a friend for my 21st and I love it.

What would you wear to an important interview or meeting?

Friday, 21 September 2012

In praise of my electric wheels

This post isn't going to be for everyone, and thats fair enough, not everyone likes cars and not everyone likes shiny electric chairs.

Lucky for me I have some friends who do, anyone would think we were discussing a car when we were talking about my new chair and what it can do, features etc.

I just love it, its no bigger than a normal chair although it does weigh more, it does 5mph and it means I can go out on my own without fear of exhaustion/ fainting and no one has to push me so it gives that bit of independence back!

 Here is a photo of my and my chair at the paralympics!

Not the most flattering photo I know but the only one I have of me in it so far!

Tuesday, 18 September 2012

Back to uni spending

A couple of weeks ago I got the medical ok to go back to uni, had to leave in my third year because my rsd went out of remission. I still have a meeting with the top guys at uni about living arrangements and things like that but that's just a formality hopefully so I decided to go shopping to Westfield with my mum to try and get a bit prepared.

I was in a real state because for the past year I have lived in my boyfriends shorts and trackies essentially as they are loose and comfortable. However I don't want to scare my friends and tutors when I'm back so shopping was called for. To give you an idea of how little fun this trip was for my mum and me there were certain rules I had to abide by.

1) Tops must be long enough to wear with leggings (only trousers I can wear apart from trackies!)
2)Dresses and Skirts must be long enough to wear in a wheelchair. (I have a large collection of short skirts and dresses which look indecent in my chair)
3) My natural fussiness and sense or lack of style!

So here we go, I hope the photos are ok, i'm not a brilliant photographer!

  • A lovely folder from paperchase complete with matching pen and pencil and a metal tea tin I'm going to use as a pen holder (best thing is it has ginger biscuits I need to eat first!)
  • New Hairbrush, something I've been putting off for a while and metal nail file

  •  Two nice casual but still smartish tops from H&M

  • Lovely wool dress from the sale rail at Dorothy Perkins

  • Two smartish shirts, one sheer and one a sort of beige.

I also got 5 different colours of vest top but don't think they're that interesting for you to see!

So there we are my back to uni shop, have you done any stocking up recently, I'd like to see?

Thursday, 13 September 2012

Magnetic Nails

A couple of days ago I decided to try using my magnetic nail polish again. Think I'll give up doing that in the future!

As you can see the thumb looks really good but with the rest of the nails you can barely see the pattern at all, all you can see is the lovely smudgy bits where the magnet hit the polish!

The other thing was that it took a long long time to do for such little effect, I wouldn't have minded so much if it was quick!

On the plus side I think the colour is gorgeous and it was opaque with one coat so I'll definitely be using the polish again but maybe not the magnet.

What's your experience with magnetic polishes?

Monday, 10 September 2012

30 things you may not know about my invisible illness

As you may or may not know this week is invisible illness week so I thought I'd do a meme thats been going around and bore you all stupid about RSD.

1. The hidden illness(es) I live with are:

  • Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy/ Chronic Regional Pain Syndrome
  • Depression

2. I was diagnosed with them in:

RSD in September 2007 and Depression in February 2010

3. But I had symptoms since:

The RSD since April that year and who knows with depression

4. The biggest adjustment I’ve had to make is:

The fatigue and having to plan everything to make sure I'll have enough energy to get through what I need to do. Also being permenantly reliant on crutches or a wheelchair. Also, how unpredictable things are and having to be realistic about my dreams. I was going to be a teacher but now that seems like its not going to happen, not very fair on the kids if you can't get up every morning!

5. Most people assume:

That I just have a sprained ankle as I''m hopping around on crutches or that when I use my chair I'm paralysed; nobody can see pain and fatigue or lack of motor control from the outside.

6. The hardest part about mornings are:

Waking up and actually getting moving, because I sleep very badly I'm often tired in the mornings and the inertia is very bad so it takes a lot of effort to get moving and waking up in pain is never fun!

7. My favorite medical TV show is:

I'm addicted to Casualty and Holby City as well as Grey's Anatomy. My med student friends and my doctors when I'm in hospital are I'm sure very irritated about my endless questions of "is your life really like that?!" But you'd be surprised how useful Casualty is when learning the heirachy of doctors!

8. A gadget I couldn’t live without is:

My electric wheelchair because it means I can get out on my own and my computer because it keeps me connected even when I can't get out of bed.

9. The hardest part about nights are:

There are two things, one is that the pain is worse because of moving during the day and having less distractions, that and being very frustrated by not being able to sleep and being in too much pain to get comfy.

10. Each day I take 12 pills & vitamins.

I also have a fentanyl patch.

11. Regarding alternative treatments:

 I have physio and hydrotherapy but other than that I don't have any alternative treatments I'm worried that they would either be a waste of money or cause the rsd to spread.

12. If I had to choose between an invisible illness or visible illness I would choose:

I honestly don't know. I'd like not to have any illness!

13. Regarding working and career:

I took a year out of my degree and just got the doctors ok to go back and finish it, after that I don't know because I don't know what finishing my degree will do to me. I was going to teach but because I don't know when my days will be good or bad that doesn't seem fair. I'd love to do something working with kids though, maybe a part time librarian or education officer for museum.

14. People would be surprised to know:

3 weeks before my relapse I ran 5k for charity. I have a very large collection of stuffed toys.

15. The hardest thing to accept about my new reality has been:

I'm a bit of a control freak so accepting that I might not be able to carry out my plans was hard. Also having always dreamed of being a teacher realising I might not be able to do that and giving up a job was heartbreaking.

16. Something I never thought I could do with my illness that I did was:

Go to the Paralympic Games, my illness turned out to be an advantage as I got Danielle Brown's autograph!

17. The commercials about my illness:

There aren't any. Do we get illness commercials in the UK?

18. Something I really miss doing since I was diagnosed is:

Driving, I had a manual car and am too spacy on my meds to drive an automatic. That and going out on my own, I need to much help with the chair and am too prone to fainting to go anywhere I can't be rescued from!

19. It was really hard to have to give up:

Control, Teaching, my independence.

20. A new hobby I have taken up since my diagnosis is:

Blogging. I've loved having my little space on the net to write whatever I want.

21. If I could have one day of feeling normal again I would:

Go shopping on my own to the new Stratford Westfield!

22. My illness has taught me:

That not all people are nice, I know now who my true friends are and I love them from the bottom of my heart. Also that people don't understand chronic pain or the need for medication.

23. Want to know a secret? One thing people say that gets under my skin is:

When people say I just need to fight harder or tell me to come off my meds or call me a druggie! (ok thats more than one thing but I'm holding back here!) Oh yeah and tell me this is my choice.

24. But I love it when people:

Just talk to me like normal.

25. My favorite motto, scripture, quote that gets me through tough times is:

"We're all in the gutter but some of us are looking at the stars"- Oscar Wilde. Also seeing Danielle Brown, the paralympic archer with RSD compete is just so inspirational, I think if she can win a gold medal then I can shower and get dressed today.

26. When someone is diagnosed I’d like to tell them:

You will have to fight for help. Do your research and get referred to the right places and the right treatments. Find a good GP, they are a lifesaver. You need to adapt your life but it isn't over.

27. Something that has surprised me about living with an illness is:

I don't care what people think anymore. I'm also so pleased with little things that happen like going for a meal.

28. The nicest thing someone did for me when I wasn’t feeling well was:

I don't know, offering to stay the night in hospital with me, giving me something to look forward to plans wise. there are so many things and my mum looks after me everyday as I've become so dependent on help.

29. I’m involved with Invisible Illness Week because:

I have experienced people marginalising my experience of being ill and I don't want that to happen to other people. By educating others about invisible illness hopefully sufferers will be treated better and you never know, the more people I talk to, the more people they mention it to, it might end up getting talked about so much there begins a real fight for a cure!

30. The fact that you read this list makes me feel:

Slightly embarassed that I've opened myself up so much but incredibly grateful that you've taken the time to read this.

Sunday, 9 September 2012


Hi guys, 
Just to say that I'm sorry I've been away for so long. Lots of reasons for it and I won't bore you with them here, but hopefully there'll be lots of nice posts for you soon.


Sunday, 24 June 2012

My Free Ciate Nailpolish

I have just painted my nails with this so I can't comment on the wear but I wanted to talk a bit about the application.

This polish is the Free one I got in Marie Claire and I chose Purple Sherbert as I didn't have anything else like it.

I have mixed feelings about this nailpolish. On the one hand it was incredibly easy to apply and i didn't get it all over my fingers like I normally do. On the other hand I applied four coats and it was streaky and just a bit off. However you can only see that from far away and maybe its because its a pale colour.
Here it is with and without flash.

Without Flash

With Flash

Do you have any Ciate polishes, what do you think of the application?

Saturday, 23 June 2012

Food For Thought

A break from the beauty/ makeup here today as I wanted to share with you something I've found that sums up how I feel a lot more articulately than I could ever express it. So read, think, comment if you want but I guess this is just something interesting to me that I thought was worth sharing with everyone.

An Open Letter To Those Without Invisible Disability Or Chronic Illness …

Having an invisible disability (ID) and/or invisible chronic illness (ICI) means that many things change. Just because you can’t see the changes doesn’t mean they aren’t real.
Most people don’t understand much about these disabilities/diseases and their effects, and of those that think they know, many are actually mis-informed. In the spirit of informing those who wish to understand …

… These are the things that I would like you to understand about me before you judge me…

Please understand that being disabled/sick doesn’t mean I’m not still a human being. I have to spend most of my day being very careful what I do, and if you visit I might not seem like much fun to be with, but I’m still me stuck inside this body. I still worry about school and work and my family and friends, and most of the time I’d still like to hear you talk about yours too.

Please understand the difference between “happy” and “healthy”. When you’ve got the flu you probably feel miserable with it, but I’ve been sick for years. I can’t be miserable all the time, in fact I work hard at not being miserable. So if you’re talking to me and I sound happy, it means I’m happy. That’s all. I may be tired. I may be in pain. I may be sicker that ever. Please, don’t say, “Oh, you’re sounding better!”. I am not sounding better, I am sounding happy. If you want to comment on that, you’re welcome

Please understand that being able to stand up for five minutes, doesn’t necessarily mean that I can stand up for ten minutes, or an hour. It’s quite likely that doing that five minutes has exhausted my resources and I’ll need to recover – imagine an athlete after a race. They couldn’t repeat that feat right away either.

Please repeat the above paragraph substituting, “sitting up”, “walking”, “thinking”, “being sociable” and so on … it applies to everything that I do.

Please understand that the effects of chronic illnesses and many disabilities are variable. It’s quite possible (for me, it’s common) that one day I am able to walk to the bathroom and back, while the next day I’ll have trouble sitting up. Please don’t attack me when I’m worse by saying, “But you did it before!”. If you want me to do something, ask if I can and I’ll tell you.
Similarly, my illness/disability may vary suddenly, meaning I may need to cancel an invitation at the last minute, if this happens please do not take it personally.

Please understand that “getting out and doing things” does not make me feel better, and can often make me worse. Chronic illnesses/disabilities may cause a secondary/reactive depression (wouldn’t you get depressed if you were stuck in bed 23 hours a day for years on end?) but they are not caused by depression. Telling me that I need some fresh air and exercise is not not correct and probably not appreciated – if I could possibly do it that, I would.

Please understand that if I say I have to sit down/lie down/take these pills now, that I do have to do it right now – it can’t be put off or forgotten just because I’m doing something else more exciting. Illnesses and disabilities do not forgive their victims easily.

Please understand that I can’t spend all of my energy trying to get well from my incurable chronic illness/disability. With a short-term illness like the flu, you can afford to put life on hold for a week or two while you get well. But an important part of having a chronic illness or disability is coming to the realization that you have to spend energy on having a life while you’re sick/disabled. This doesn’t mean I’m not trying to get better. It doesn’t mean I’ve given up. It’s just how life is when you’re dealing with a chronic illness/disability.

If you want to suggest a cure to me, please don’t. It’s not because I don’t appreciate the thought; and it’s not because I don’t want to get well. It’s because I have had almost every single one of my friends suggest one at one point or another. At first I tried them all, but then I realized that I was using up so much energy trying things that I was making myself sicker, not better. If there was something that cured, or even helped, all people with a certain illness or disability then we’d know about it. This is not a drug-company conspiracy, there is worldwide networking (both on and off the Internet) between people with similar and different chronic illnesses and disabilities, if something worked we would know about it.
If after reading that, you still want to suggest a cure, then do it if you must. Preferably in writing and accompanied by the scientific papers that prove it works. But don’t expect me to rush out and try it. I might not even reply. If I haven’t had it or something like it suggested before, and it sounds reasonable, I’ll probably take what you said and discuss it with my doctor.

Please understand that getting better from an illness can be very slow. And getting better from an invisible disability might not happen at all. People with chronic illnesses have so many systems in their bodies out of equilibrium, and functioning wrongly, that it may take a long time to sort everything out, if it ever happens.

I depend on you – people who are able-bodied – for many things.

But most importantly, I need you to understand me.

Tuesday, 19 June 2012

Day 20- Your Beauty Tip for a Night Out

See the problem with this one is that I don't actually have nights out, what with being knackered, nauseous and dizzy all the time so I thought I'd give you a beauty tip for a physio session and that is quite simply.... 


 Unless of  course you want to look like this!

Sunday, 17 June 2012

Day 19- Your Favourite Mascara

There's no competition for me when it comes to mascara. It has to be Max Factor False Lash Effect. This gives me a nice dramatic look that can also be toned down to something natural for everyday.

It doesn't flake and isn't too wet either. The only downside to it is that it is hard to do your lower lashes with but as I rarely wear mascara on my lower lashes I consider that a non issue. Best of all this mascara is very reasonably priced especially when you can find it on Cheap Smells!

Do you have a holy grail mascara or one that you think is better than False Lash Effect? Let me know!

Friday, 15 June 2012

Day 18- Your Favourite Lip Balm

I'm the sort of girl who always has a lip balm in her bag, there's nothing else quite like it. To be honest with you if I need a moment of calm before doing something I always pull out my lip balm and focus on applying it.

I own quite a few different ones, mostly Burts Bees I admit, I'll probably do a post comparing them all at some point. However, my favourite lip balm of all time is the Burts Bees original one. I remember when I was in school a girl I knew had it and we used to share it on the way home and admire how tingly it was.

 (apologies for the slanted picture, no matter how many times I rotate it Blogger insists that it has to be this way!)

To be honest with you, the tingliness is one of the reasons that I've ranked this above my other lip balms. The other reason is that it hydrates without feeling greasy or like its left a residue on your lips which I definitely love. The third reason is that I just love herbally scents and this has one thats up there with the best.
Most important of all though it does its job and my lips are lovely and soft after using it. Plus it has a cute picture of a bee on it!

What are your thoughts on lip balm, what's your favourite?

Wednesday, 13 June 2012

Day 17- Your Favourite Beauty Guru

I'm sure that you, like me, get most of your beauty information, reviews, inspirations and tips from blogs. However, sometimes there's nothing like watching a video and for that there's nobody I turn to except Lisa Eldridge. I think she's fantastic. She's informative and clear to follow and most of all inspirational in her looks! Definitely go check her out if you haven't already.

Who else should I be looking at?

Monday, 11 June 2012

Day 16- Your Favourite Body Lotion

Yet again this is something that I'm not the best at doing. I apply body lotion when I've showered (which is once every other day so its not like I smell or at least I hope I don't!) but I definitely don't apply it every day!

Saying that I do think there's something lovely about applying the perfumed lotion to your skin; it only takes two minutes but it feels really self indulgent!

I thought I'd tell you about two of my favourite body lotions, they're definitely my most used ones at any rate!

Sanctuary Daily Spa Escape: Sandelular sensuous body Souffle. 

I got this one for my birthday from my little sister in a set with a bath lotion and shower gel. The scent is hard to explain its sort of herby and rich with a hint of incense but nice incense not like you're inside a hippy shop. As the name suggests its a whipped loose texture and a little of it goes quite a long way. The scent doesn't last all that long but thats good because it doesn't interfere with other perfumes you put on. All in all this is lovely and feels like a treat when you apply it. It doesn't take very long to soak in either which is nice although I am guilty of the sin of never waiting for it to soak in before I get dressed!

Cowshed Knackered Cow Body Lotion

This lotion has quite a unique scent which I think might have people divided. Its a very herbal scent with hits of lavender and eucalyptus which I love because they're some of my favourite smells! The lotion is thicker than the sanctuary one but it still doesn't take much at all to do you whole body. This is great as well because it doesn't leave any residue on your body. I also love it because every so often I catch a waft of the scent throughout the day but again it doesn't seem to interfere with perfume. I got this as a freebie from something but I think I would repurchase it because the smell is just so lovely although it is pricy! Then again there are so many other body lotions out there so maybe not!

Do you have a favourite body lotion? What would you recommend?

Saturday, 9 June 2012

Day 15- Photo of Your favourite bracelet

My favourite bracelet is my Pandora charm bracelet. Its funny that it is that one as it was originally gifted to me by my estranged dad but I think I've made it my own!

I thought I'd mention some of my favourite charms on it.

 The Heart was a christmas gift from my boyfriend.
The Kangaroo and Elephant were bought in Sydney the last time I was home.
The Frog was a 20th Birthday gift from my mum.
The Hedgehog is a hand me down from my little sister (not sure if that should be hand me up?)

Do You have a favourite bracelet? Is there a story behind it?